Tuesday, December 3, 2013

The Tree is up 2013 and Christmas is Changing Forever

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It's not about me anymore, and it feels amazing. Something has changed and suddenly I am living much more in the moment and with much more peace. My instinct is now to give my children so much more space to be children than I ever did before, and it is changing Christmas for me and for them. Guess how I decorated my tree this year? I didn't! I set out all the ornaments a few days ago. I let my 6, 4, and 2 year olds play with them, break a few, make dolls houses out of them, and then once the tree was up today, I said, "Go for it! Put the ornaments wherever you want?" There was no, "No, no, there is already one there!" "No, no, that one is too heavy!" "No, no, we don't need any on the back." It was all -- "Awesome, how pretty!!" They shared, they helped each other, they smiled for pics when asked to .... it was so much more fun. I did some rearranging when it was over, but they were cool with it. My nagging levels have really decreased, and I think it makes everyone in our house happier -- most of all -- ME!
I am starting to say things like, "It's just stuff" and "try not to drop it, but it's ok if it breaks." I let Lizza put Mary and Joseph and the baby Jesus facing a wall. I think part of my break through is based on me having only half of my Christmas stuff with me. The other half is lost in a storage unit vortex. It suddenly just puts things in perspective -- if I don't need all the decorations every year, then maybe I don't need all the decorations to last forever either.
I'm so grateful for my kids and so excited to make magic for them this year. I'm working on a calendar for the month so I don't draw a blank everyday on fun activities and ideas. I'm excited to have friends over but also really excited to just be home with Tim and my girls. I feel more steady than I ever have before. Merry Christmas! (War is over ... )

(However, As much as I love my new life, I am missing the LIVE nativity in Alpine, the madrigal dinner, fried scones with Audrey and the Nelsons, and a few other Christmas traditions that I had grown so found of  ... sniff, sniff. But hey, I am in Ouray, and Santa is coming to the ELKS!)
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